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Confidence

I’m not sure when I turned into this sort of blogger, but I guess it’s better than some of the things I posted in the past.

I was reading a post on Tumblr (while pointedly ignoring my open English text book sitting next to me, naturally) that said, “being told i was smart and above average from a young age was probably one of the worst things to happen to me because now i have a complex and question my entire existence when i dont excel at something right away” (it is taking all of my self control not to go in and edit…).

This was mainly my problem in elementary school. All my teachers were constantly telling me that I was super smart and after a while, it kind of made me despise my peers a little bit. Fortunately, I didn’t handle the transition to intermediate school with much grace and made less of an impression on my teachers there. It taught me the difference between being confident and being a twat.

I lost the status that I’d built up in my mind for myself and I realized that I was just as insecure and stupid as everyone else my age. It took me, probably, until the ninth grade to realize that I didn’t need status to be confident. I started to like learning a lot more and I started learning how to be good at it. I also stopped looking at my teachers as a source of praise and attention and started looking at them as actual people.

I’m not sure exactly how this instills confidence, but I think confidence is something that comes from yourself. It’s the same as how you have to learn to accept yourself in order to be happy instead of looking to others for acceptance. Of course, other people can help inspire you to be confident.

The incident that actually spurred this whole line of thought into being happened this morning in my AP Chemistry class. AP Chemistry is one of the only classes I’ve truly struggled in. I mean, I got B’s and C’s in my math classes before, but I never really tried in my math classes. I slept half the time or only half-finished the homework assignments.

The thing about AP Chemistry is that, not only do I have to worry about keeping my grade up, but I have to worry about the AP test at the end of the year. For a long time, I didn’t plan on taking the exam because I didn’t think I could pass it. I’m still not sure if I can, but today in class when I expressed my anxieties about my ability to get a passing score on the test, my teacher told me that I’m smarter than I think I am and that I can pass the test, easily.

In elementary school, a teacher telling me that would have fed my ego and probably would have made me roll my eyes, for I heard them express the same sentiments far too often. However, when it comes to this subject that I do not excel at and cannot easily get a fantastic grade, this expression of confidence in me gave me a feeling that I don’t often get.

It isn’t the feeling that you get when someone says something nice to you out of habit or because it is social protocol, it’s the feeling you get when someone is honest and genuine toward you. The best kind of teacher is a teacher who can inspire confidence and love of learning in a student. My teacher inspired confidence in me this morning. Confidence in a subject that I haven’t been doing well in for more than half a year and with that confidence, I can learn to love the subject more because I’m less worried about doing well at it.

Well, maybe I’m not less anxious about the test, but I know that I am going to try and that’s what counts when it comes to confidence. Confidence spurs you to action.

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Favorite Actor:

I’m assuming that this means favorite actor within Doctor Who, otherwise, I might have to put a little more thought into the question. My favorite actor is probably David Tennant or Matt Smith. I can’t really decide just like I can’t decide who my favorite Doctor is. I don’t really have favorites. I have things or people that I like and things or people that I don’t like and then I just call them all my favorite.

My friends who spend any small amount of time with me can attest to this.

“Such-and-such teacher? He’s my favorite!”

“So-and-so in Orchestra class? She’s my favorite!”

“Crime and Punishment/The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes/Warriors/Pride and Prejudice/Artemis Fowl/books by John Green/Redwall books/The Bartimaeus Trilogy? THAT’S MY FAVORITE BOOK EVVVVERRRRRRRRRRRRR!”

I really am surprised that people don’t get more annoyed with me about this…

Anyway, favorite actor… I pretty much like them all.

School

I was fully planning on writing a blog post about the first week of school, but here it is, mid-trimester, and I didn’t do it… Whatever, I can still blog about school, can’t I? I’m just going to do this the lazy way and start with first hour and go on.

First hour: AP Literature

For those of you who didn’t know (I didn’t until recently), “AP” stands for “Answer the prompt”. Basically, when we analyze literature and then write an essay about it, our main goal is to answer whatever prompt we are given. If you can’t successfully answer the prompt, then apparently you fail at life.

One thing that absolutely gets me about this class, and every English class I’ve had since the eighth grade, is that no matter what I do, I can’t get the teacher to like me. In mostly any other subject I have, I can usually get my teachers to like me and think I’m pretty clever. I’m not saying that I’m super clever, really, but my teachers like me and I like them. They’re cool, but English teachers just won’t acknowledge me as anything other than average. I don’t mean to sound horribly vain (which I probably am), but I like to think of myself as a pretty good writer and my grammar skills are far superior to most kids my age (as Facebook statuses will attest to).

In this AP Literature class particularly, I’m actually ignored. I made the mistake of hurting my teacher’s ego early on. We were talking about being able to understand any text to some degree by using context clues and we were challenged to try to “stump the teacher” by bringing her any text at all that she could analyze. I took her my book entitled, “The Gentle Art of Verbal Self-Defense”, but contains several passages that actually mean nothing. She conceded pretty quickly, declaring me victorious, but ever since, she’s started to ignore me. I’ll start talking and she talk over me.

I actually like her, as a teacher. She’s one of the most effective teachers that I’ve had for a long time, and she’s actually pretty cool as a person, having lent me a couple reading book, all fabulous. The only time I was able to do something right in her class, was when we did an analysis as a group and she didn’t actually know that it was I who wrote the analysis paragraph. She keeps telling us that she expects us to get very low scores and be very bad at everything for the first trimester because we don’t know what we’re doing, but that’s really not giving us any chance to be good at something because she doesn’t expect us to be able to.

I think she underestimates our intelligence a little bit, which bugs me, but otherwise, it’s a very informative class.

Second hour: Seminary

I’m pretty lucky when it comes to the Seminary classes that I’m put in. I’ve had every single one of the Seminary teachers besides the guy that wasn’t here last year. This trimester’s teacher is one of the most interesting teacher I’ve had. He knows Hebrew and integrates a lot more of his theories into the class along with doctrine, more so than other teachers. I’m not saying that he makes things up, but his theories make a lot of sense to me. I’ve learned a lot in his class and he’s pretty hilarious on a daily basis.

I’m generally a huge fan of Seminary. A lot of things make sense to me and the teachers are all very cool, interesting people. Plus, they always recommend books to me at times when I need something to read.

Third hour: Orchestra

Compared to last year, our class has improved a lot. Our teacher is in class a lot more than she was last year, though she does get to class late daily. This is due to her first two hours being spent at a different school. The music we’re playing for our Halloween concert in about a week is some pretty great stuff.

The thing I’m most excited about is that we get to wear our Halloween costumes for the concert. My friend, Leslie, and I are being Hogwarts students (not specific characters), though Leslie calls us “Hogwartians” which bugs me because it sounds so stupid when she says it (though it is pretty weird conceptually). I was trying to get a scarf knitted for the concert, but I’m only half done so far, so I don’t know if I’m going to make it.

Fourth hour: Social Dance

I’m being forced to take this class due to needing a PE credit, but it’s not all that bad, since I’m actually super good at dancing. We’re learning the waltz right now, which makes all kinds of sense after having to do the Foxtrot for a month.

Fifth hour: Pre-Calculus

I oppose math classes, though I think math is interesting… I really don’t have much to say about this class other than I read, sleep, and procrastinate a lot during it.

Sixth hour: Financial Literacy

I usually get on the internet and read Tumblr during this class because Tumblr is the only sight, besides Pottermore, that the school district hasn’t blocked on the computers. It’s interesting enough, I suppose, and I do sit by some pretty awesome people who keep me entertained whilst we take endless notes on identity fraud.

 

I’ll probably write again when classes change… If I ever get around to it. :)